Grey

最近不懂叻。。。
真的很不懂。。。
我好像menopause了这样

时时都为了点小事get annoyed
i don't even know exactly what im being or doing.

Im lost...
again?..


for example..
my bm teacher
i think i have been cursing him since yesterday
i mean...
its so damn unfair..
argh!
not that i care bout the marks or what
it simply isn't fair!

did i perform that badly?
=(

munhong:"大脚，你已经背了20天了咯！！“

exaggerating huh
i didnt spend that much of time
5 days
including the period when i was bloody sick
i put my soul on that piece of paper
and this is what i get
nice feedback
yeah right =(

I have become negative
oh no...
I have become more and MORE negative

Say bye to reality
seriously disappointed =(

Im not happy
Im never happy
I wish for happiness
I can't find him.

He's nowhere to be seen.


i always think so,
when people are negative
it's their choice
they chose to be so.
转牛角尖。

However
this thinking doesn't seem to help me
why would someone choose to be negative,
i really don't understand
weird...

me.


people say I've changed
I think so.
I don't wanna interfere with stuff none of my business anymore,
I don't want to
I don't eager to
I prefer being here,
just,
here.

grey grey
how i pray
day day
day by day
may my day be as grey as today.